Two lines in a Little Window

i peered at the little window and didn't have to wait at all as two lines appeared almost instantly. ok, that confirms what i suspected was true since the beginning of the month. i had mixed feelings. I was happy but it blended with anxiety - am i ready, would i be able to cope, would tasnym be able to accept it?



sarah was happy and has happily accepted that she was going to have a baby brother named rayyan, not that we know its a boy yet, he he... but this was a conversation i had with her out of the blue a few days back that kind of threw me off:

Sarah: Mama, baby Rayyan's house is out there (pointing out of the window)

Mama: Where?

Sarah: Out there, his house is far away (again pointing out of the window)

Mama: When is he coming?

Sarah: Not today but he is coming someday, another day. He is sleeping now cos its night time.

Mama: What does he look like?

Sarah: He's small.

the active imagination of a young child? i really dunno...

for now, i'm just battling nausea, vomitting and extreme fatigue, oh god counting down the days to when the first trimester is over and i can enjoy the pregnancy a bit more. how is it that others are so lucky not to have morning sickness and i end up having all day sickness!! and my back is aching already while no masseuse would touch me... how many more days till the end of the trimester?? sigh...